Long Time No Post

WOW.

For anyone who reads this blog (I just checked my stats, and I doubt anyone does), you've probably noticed that I haven't posted in ages. The reason for this is that I got distracted by life and put my routine on hold. I originally ordered three bottles of Wonderup, and I haven't even finished my second. It's more than halfway finished, but you get the point: I quit. Now this doesn't mean that I've quit forever. My breasts are still the same size they were when I started this NBE journey. Come to think of it, at times they do seem bigger, however there's a pretty good chance that my period is causing those changes.

To be honest, I barely pay attention to my breasts anymore. I think I started liking their size at some point. Don't get me wrong--I still think it would be awesome if they were a cup or two bigger, but I'm just not as stressed out about their size as I was a few years ago. Oh man, when I was starting puberty and up until I was around 18, I was truly obsessed with my breasts and their smallness. All day I'd think about how much better my life would be if they were bigger and I'd hate going clothes shopping because all the tops I liked required a fuller bosom. I did so many stupid things. I wore bras that were too big for me, which made it look like I was actually a C-cup. Since I didn't want people to be able to tell that I was wearing a too-large bra, I'd wear multiple undershirts to fade the bra lines. This was a complete nightmare during summer months, because I could never go wear a bathing suit or tank tops. My self-esteem truly suffered and the stress was ridiculous. Now I'm comfortable with their smallness, because I realize that the rest of my body is small in general (I'm skinny and short), so I look okay with this chest.

I'm planning on starting my NBE routine again tomorrow. It will consist of taking my Wonderup tablets three times a day, as well as the other herbs, vitamins, and Evening Primrose Oil. I haven't made up my mind as to whether or not I'm going to use the Wonderup cream for massage. I lost its cap a few months ago, so I don't know if the exposure to air damaged it. And to be honest, I don't like how it smells at all.

That's all for now.

What I did during October

Day 63

Well, it's been quite a while, hasn't it? I've been extremely busy, so I had no time for blogging during all of last month. I don't have much to say, to be quite honest. I'm now into my second bottle of Wonderup, and I still haven't grown. The only change that I can say is happening is that my breasts now get much larger when I'm PMSing than they did before I started doing NBE. During those awesome 4-5 days before I get my period, my breasts really feel heavier and fuller; they fill out my bras much better and I can push them together with way more ease than I can when I'm not PMSing. But sadly, the growth all goes down usually around the second day of my cycle.

Luckily, I've continued to keep track of my activity everyday on my Twitter. This was my activity during October:

October 1st: Took all pills, massaged once. Got my period.
October 2nd: Took all pills, didn’t massage.
October 3rd: Took all pills, massaged twice.
October 4th: Took all pills, massaged once. Began using a heating pad.
October 5th: Took all pills, didn’t massage.
October 6th: Took all pills, massaged once with heating pad.
October 7th: Took all pills, didn’t massage.
October 8th: Took first two doses of pills, no massage.
October 9th: Did nothing.
October 10th: Took all pills, massaged once with heating pad.
October 11th: Took all pills, massaged once with heating pad.
October 12th: Took all pills, massaged once with heating pad.
October 13th: Took all pills, massaged once, no heating pad.
October 14th: Took first two doses of pills, didn’t massage.
October 15th: Took first two doses of pills, didn’t massage.
October 16th: Did nothing.
October 17th: Took first dose of pills, didn’t massage.
October 18th: Took all pills, didn’t massage.
October 19th: Took all pills, didn’t massage.
October 20th: Unknown.
October 21st: Took all pills, massaged once with heating pad.
October 22nd: Did nothing.
October 23rd: Did nothing.
October 24th: Did nothing.
October 25th: Took all pills, massaged once with heating pad.
October 26th: Did nothing.
October 27th: Took all pills, massaged once with heating pad.
October 28th: Took all pills, didn’t massage.
October 29th: Did nothing.
October 30th: Took all pills, didn’t massage. Got my period.
October 31st: Took all pills, massaged once, no heating pad.

As you can see, there were quite a few days when I didn't do anything, and there were even more days during which I didn't massage even if I'd taken my pills. The problem with the Wonderup massage cream is that it's very thick, so I can only massage with it for about a minute until it starts to clump and rub off my chest, which is obviously not what I'm going for. The cream is also very uncomfortable to get out of the bottle now. The bottom half of the bottle still has quite a bit of cream left, but I have to squeeze the container to try to push whatever I can to the top. It looks like this:


Those people at Wonderup should definitely think of redesigning that bottle of theirs, maybe by putting a straw and a nozzle to help with getting the lotion on the bottom of the bottle out.

One thing that could possibly be harming my routine right now is my daily intake of caffeine. Caffeine is supposedly detrimental to NBE. I don't drink so much of it to qualify as an addict, but I do like to have at least one energy drink everyday, and these types of sodas contain a lot more caffeine than coffee or Cokes. I'll try to give these drinks up, but I don't know how well it's going to work out.

Just Updating

Day 24

I'm a full-time student in college, so September's been very busy for me, as it's my first month back in school.

This entry is just an update, so that I don't fall too far behind. I've kept daily notes of my NBE activity on Twitter, so I know everything I've done. I'm getting close to completing my first month of being on this new routine, and my first bottle of Wonderup is more than halfway finished:

I can't say that I've experienced any growth yet, but it's probably too early to be seeing any real changes yet. My breasts are feeling a little fuller since this morning, and it's most likely PMS; I got my last period on September 2nd, so I should be getting it like a week or so from now.

Anyway, so far, this is what my activity's been:


September 2nd: I took the pills three times, used cream twice. Got my period.
September 3rd: Took the pills twice, used cream once.
September 4th: Took the pills three times, used cream once.
September 5th: Took pills three times, used cream twice.
September 6th: Took pills three times, used cream twice.
September 7th: Took pills three times, used cream twice.
September 8th: Took pills twice, used cream once.
September 9th: Took pills three times, used cream once.
September 10th: Took pills three times, used cream twice.
September 11th: Took pills three times, massaged once.

September 12th: Took pills three times, massaged twice.
September 13th: Took pills three times, massaged once.
September 14th: Added fenugreek, saw palmetto, and evening primrose oil to routine. Took all pills, massaged once.
September 15th: Took all pills, massaged once.
September 16th: Did nothing.
September 17th: Took all pills, massaged once.
September 18th: Took all pills, massaged once.
September 19th: Took all pills, massaged twice.
September 20th: Did nothing.
September 21st: Took all pills, didn't massage.
September 22nd: Took first two doses of pills, massaged once.
September 23rd: Took all pills, massaged twice.
September 24th: Took all pills, massaged twice.
September 25th: Took all pills, didn't massage.

I'm obviously not going to keep on doing that every time I update this blog, because the list would get ridiculously long. I'm glad to see that I've only skipped two days. For me, that's really good, because I forget things easily. It looks like I've only missed three other doses, and on most days I tend to use the Wonderup cream once. I'll try to improve that.

I added the fenugreek, saw palmetto, and evening primrose oil on the 13th day of my routine, so basically after two weeks. The daily amounts I'm taking of those herbs are: 3000mg of herbs from the Wonderup, 1170mg of saw palmetto, 1220mg of fenugreek, and 1300mg of EPO.

That's all for now.

Day 10

There really isn't much to report. The only somewhat important thing I've got to say is that I don't think my breasts have gone down to their normal size after my period finished this month. I think they went down a little bit, but they're still slightly bigger than I'm used to.

Oh yeah, fun fact: The day I started my Wonderup routine was also the day I got my period. I didn't do this on purpose. I started to take the Wonderup in the morning and got my period in the evening. I thought I still had a few days left before getting it, but I was wrong. I've noticed that lately my period has been arriving a few days earlier each month. Is it important that I started my routine on Day One of my cycle? I don't know.

Anyway, here's the timeline for how I've kept up with my routine so far.

September 2nd: I took the pills three times, used cream twice.
September 3rd: Took the pills twice, used cream once.
September 4th: Took the pills three times, used cream once.
September 5th: Took pills three times, used cream twice.
September 6th: Took pills three times, used cream twice.
September 7th: Took pills three times, used cream twice.
September 8th: Took pills twice, used cream once.
September 9th: Took pills three times, used cream once.
September 10th: Took pills three times, used cream twice.

So I've done the routine perfectly for five out of the ten days (counting today) I've been on it. Today is going to be a "took pills three times, used cream once" day. Sometimes I wake up early in the morning and I have a million other things on my mind, so I forget to massage. I'll usually realize I forgot to apply the cream when I've left my apartment (I no longer live with my parents) and am on my way somewhere. Since I carry my bottle of pills around me in my purse, it's easy to fix the problem of forgetting to take them at home, because I can just get myself a water bottle or some other drink and take them.

It's a pretty easy routine to follow so far. I'm hoping to be more disciplined with it from now on, though. I'd like to lengthen my masages in particular. Right now they're pretty short, less than two minutes. The problem is that the Wonderup cream dries pretty quickly because it's kind of heavy, so after a while, it just feels like you're massaging with practically nothing.

I still have not gotten any of the extra supplies I ordered from GNC, by the way.

Wonderup

Day 3

So I've decided to restart my whole day counter, because my routine is completely new and any growth I may gain from here on out will have to do with what I'm doing now.

So anyway, today I'll just be writing about how the product is. I bought three bottles of the Wonderup pills and one container of their cream. I have to say that their packaging was very discreet. None of their bottles say that the stuff is for breast enlargement, however the pill bottles have a picture of a breast on them, which to me is pretty obvious. Their bottle of cream has a picture of a flower on the front and although it doesn't say "breast enlargement," it does say "firming" cream.

I was very concerned with getting the labels off of the bottles, because if someone were to stumble upon these things (even though I plan to keep them hidden), I didn't want said persons to have the ability to google "Wonderup" and discover what exactly all this stuff is. Getting these labels off the bottles was A NIGHTMARE. The labels were EXTREMELY sticky stickers, and they did not come off easily at all. I had to run the bottles under water and scrape off the labels with a knife. And even after that, they've still got glue on the outside, so they're still sticky.

Right now, this is what they look like:


The pills look like this:The pills smell pretty bad, but they go down easily enough. The instructions say to take a pair three times a day. They recommend you use the cream twice a day. The best part about my routine change is the fact that the cream smells pleasant, which is an AWESOME change from the horrible odor I had to deal with when I was constructing my own routine.

Yesterday I decided to order fenugreek, saw palmetto, and evening primrose oil from GNC. Even though Wonderup has one of the best reputations from all the breast enlargement products out there, I'm hoping that by adding some extra herbs it'll help me grow a little quicker.

Oh, and for anyone wondering why I chose Wonderup of all brands, it's because, as I just mentioned, it seems to be one of the most trustworthy and successful brands out there. Several women on the NBE forums I visit have used it and most have had at least SOME growth to report. I was particularly inspired by a girl named Amber. She has very similar stats to mine, and her growth is pretty remarkable. I only hope I can have the same luck.

Routine Change

Day 80

It's been a while, hasn't it? I've taken advantage of Twitter's easy and quick way to make updates and have ended up slacking off from writing this blog.

I'm not sure whether or not I should really label today "Day 80" of my routine, because I haven't really done anything since the last time I posted here. The only thing I've done is take a tea here and there, but I haven't massaged or taken any pills. I ran out and haven't had the chance to buy more. I've been very busy for the past few weeks. I took a vacation for a while, which made NBE an impossibility during those days.

Anyway I've decided to start a new routine, which is the Wonderup program. Several women on the forums have tried this product and it seems legitimate. Today I ordered three bottles of pills (a three month supply) and one bottle of their cream, which should last around two months.

There's something comforting about a premade routine. Maybe it's because I feel less like I'm trying my luck with choosing my own herbs. It seems a lot of the women on the forums even try to model their routines after Wonderup. And I'm hoping that their cream will smell more pleasant than the junk I was rubbing on myself.

I think I'm still going to add some of the extracts I've got left to the cream, though. And I might still take fenugreek pills. I don't think I'm going to be continuing the teas. I'm just not a tea drinker.

Day 45

Okay so today is either the 3rd or 4th day in a row that I go without doing anything for my routine. I've just gotten lazy, to be honest. Right now I'm making myself an herbal tea in an attempt to not make today completely useless.

I've also started slacking on blogging, so my memory is starting to get foggy on how many times I've massaged ever since my last entry. I honestly haven't done it that much, so I'd say the number is around 3 or 4 times. As a way to not lose track of what I'm doing any further, I started a Twitter today. I'll be posting at the end of each day what I did as far as massaging, tea drinking, and pill taking. So now when I don't feel like posting a long entry here, I'll still have a place to note down my activity.

I'm happy to say that even though I've been doing poorly as of late, my boobs are bigger. They've gotten progressively bigger ever since the last time I posted here. The change really got noticeable around two days ago. My breasts have been sore and fuller ever since then. They are much easier to push together than they normally are. Now, since I should be getting my period any day now, I'm fully convinced that PMS has something to do with this. Still, I don't know if it's my imagination, but my boobs feel bigger than they were last time I got PMS. It's perfectly possible that I am in fact imagining it since the last time was a month ago, however I can't help but feel that they're bigger than I've experienced before.

Oh yeah, I've gotten rid of my borage oil pills. I did that the day before yesterday. Just dumped the whole bag into a public trash can. I need to go shopping soon anyway. I only have enough remaining pills for like two days. I'm going to be getting the same herbs. I don't see any reason to change it up yet.

I think I should also mention that my skin has been a lot clearer lately. I'm not sure if this is related to the fact that I've been taken less herbal supplements. My skin is kind of unpredictable, so it might not be the herbs. Still, just thought it was worth nothing.

Day 34

I still feel slightly fuller. I'm starting to wonder if it's PMS again. It really shouldn't be PMS because I got my period on July 8th, which isn't that long ago at all. If my period stays consistent, my PMS symptoms should be starting during the first week of August. If this fullness I'm experiencing is in fact PMS, then I guess that means my period is going to start even earlier than last time, around the first or second of next month.

I've discovered two bad side effects of taking borage oil internally. One is that the smell perspires through my skin if I start sweating. Since it's summer (a very hot summer where I'm from--we're getting temperatures over 90 degrees everyday!) and I spend a lot of time outside, I still end up smelling of that horrible smell I've been trying to avoid. It's not as strong as it was when I was applying it directly to my skin, but it's still noticeable. At least to me it is, I don't know how much other people can smell it.

The other side effect is indigestion. I'm not 100% positive that the borage oil is to blame for this, but I only started getting stomachaches after I began taking it with my other herbs. I started getting really gassy, but the pangs I would get in my stomach were extremely sharp. I had to lie down on my bed and my couch on two separate occasions. I haven't used the borage oil at all during yesterday and today, and I haven't experienced that discomfort again. So I think it's pretty likely that the borage oil was the culprit.

I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to do with my leftover borage oil pills now. I still have a ton of them left, because the bottle I bought contained 100 pills. I think I may have used something over 20 of them. It seems like a shame to throw them all out. I don't think I have any other option, though. I refuse to go back to massaging with it, because the social embarrassment it causes me isn't worth it. The smell clings tightly to my clothes as well, and even after washing them two or three times in a row, it still lingers. Taking it internally still gives me bad body odor and appears to be bad for my stomach. This is turning out to have been a bad purchase all around. It looks like I'm going to have to replace it with evening primrose oil or flaxseed oil.

I've been massaging only once a day for a while now, but I haven't taken any tea for the past few days. I think I've only missed my dose of herbs one time since I last updated.

Day 31

Well, I've been on my routine for a full month now! No growth yet, but I'm staying optimistic. My boobs have actually been feeling slightly bigger for the part two or three days. However the difference is so slight that I sometimes think I'm imagining it. Other times I feel like they look exactly the same and I convince myself that the only reason I'm occasionally thinking they look bigger is because I'm so aware that I'm on NBE. I think I have a placebo effect going on.

Anyway, I'm really bad at keeping all of this a secret. Today my mother found my bottles of herbal extracts. I had them hidden in a closet behind a whole bunch of other bottles. People hardly ever look for things in that closet and when they do, they usually don't move so many things around. Well it just so happened that my mother needed the bottle right in front of my extracts. Not recognizing them, she asked me if they were mine. I admitted that they were, but I lied and told her that they were for my teas. I said that they came together with the teas and that the instructions said that I was supposed to put a few drops into each.

She seems to have believed it, but I bet she's a little suspicious. My teas are in the kitchen and my extracts were in a closet in the bathroom. She probably thinks it's a bit weird that I placed these things so far apart. I doubt that she's automatically going to jump to the conclusion that I'm trying to make my breasts grow, because she knows nothing about NBE or the herbs I'm using. But I highly doubt she doesn't realize that something fishy is going on.

She's acting like she doesn't suspect anything though.

What I REALLY have to make sure she doesn't find are my pills. Now THAT she would not take lightly. Nor could I pin that on my "teas." She would flip out like nobody's business. I'm definitely going to have to hide those better.

Moving on to my routine, I've decided to start taking my borage oil internally, but I'm going to keep massaging with fenugreek. The day before yesterday I attempted to take the fenugreek extract by just putting some drops on my tongue, but that plan was busted right after the FIRST drop. It turns out that my extracts have alcohol in them and as soon as that one drop landed in my mouth, my tongue started stinging like crazy. I didn't even swallow it because I didn't think it would be good for me. I just washed and rinsed my mouth out with water.

The instructions on the extract bottles say that I'm supposed to put 10-15 drops in a glass of water and drink it, but I'm already drinking teas so I'm just going to keep massaging with it. I know that I could actually do what I told my mom I was doing and actually put some of the extract into my teas, but somehow I think that this would make them taste terrible so I won't.

It's not that bad anyway. Without the borage oil, the smell of my mixture isn't nearly as strong. I smell a bit syrupy, but I can fix that by wearing more "closed" shirts.

The day before yesterday I massaged with only vitamin e lotion, wild yam, and fennel and I almost couldn't smell it at all. Last night I massaged with the fenugreek and I can smell it a bit, but it's bearable.

Day 28

I've noticed that lately my skin has been breaking out a little bit. It's nothing drastic, but I absolutely hate having acne. Two of my relatives made comments about it today along the lines of, "Looks like your skin is acting up." So it's noticeable.

I don't know if this is a side effect from the herbs I've been taking, but I figure it's worth noting. I wouldn't be too quick to pin it on my NBE stuff, because my skin gets crappy when I go days being lazy with my maintenance of it. I haven't been washing it too thoroughly lately, and I think my diet hasn't been too good either (but right now I can't seem to recall any of the things I've eaten over the past week, which means this might not be accurate either). When I consume a lot of grease and/or sugar I tend to break out.

Anyway, one thing that people are definitely aware of is the borage oil odor. Most of the time I'm good about hiding it (usually this takes the wearing of several shirts), but sometimes I'll put myself in a position that airs out my chest and the smell will escape. Like today I bent down to write something and the person sitting in front of me said, "Ugh, did you smell that just now? It was like this really strong, sweaty smell." At this point I'm starting to get desperate. I don't want to disrupt my routine, but this is starting to get embarrassing.

I was also thinking about no longer using fenugreek extract in my massages. The fenugreek smells stronger than any of the other herbs and mixed with borage oil, it's just terrible. So to aleviate at least some of the horribleness (the borage oil is still the worst), I'm considering excluding it.

Now, I definitely don't want to throw out the bottle of fenugreek extract I have, so I think I should try taking it internally. This idea absolutely terrifies me, I'll admit. Fenugreek has a nasty smell, and fenugreek tea also has a nasty taste. So the idea of swallowing fenugreek extract is nightmare inducing. But I have to try it, because otherwise it's going to go to waste. And I really don't want to massage with it anymore.

We'll see how it all goes.

The Complications of Secretly Doing NBE

Day 27

For an undisciplined and lazy person like myself, NBE is hard to do. Sure it sounds easy: take twelve pills a day, drink your tea(s), and massage at least once. But if you're used to procrastinating everything and if you're disorganized, a routine can fall apart easily. So it's tough for me to pull through on my routine, but the toughest part of it all is the fact that I have to hide everything from my family.

I hide my NBE because I know that if I didn't, all of the following things would happen:

1. My parents would flip out if they found out I was taking a whole bunch of pills made of substances they know nothing about. In fact, if they were to stumble upon my stash of pills, they'd probably immediately think I was on drugs. Then I'd have to explain everything to them, but of course they would tell me that I have no idea what I'm talking about and that I have no business going out and buying unknown supplements without asking their permission first.
2. They'd probably mock me for caring so much about my breast size that I'm willing to do something so dangerous (because I have no doubt that they'd think it's dangerous). Or if they didn't mock me, they'd pity me. They'd try to get to the root of my insecurity and give me a whole bunch of speeches telling me that I'm beautiful already.
3. They might tell the story to my other relatives, which would be humiliating. Half of me thinks that my parents would know better than to blab to others about something as private as this, but my other half isn't sure.
4. I'd feel a lot more pressure for my routine to work. If I were to let them know about all this and then none of it worked, I'd end up feeling like a fool. At least if I keep it to myself, nobody will know about any failures I have.

People around me also tend to perceive me as the type of person who doesn't care about their looks, so admitting that I was trying NBE would basically be confessing that I do care about my image. For some reason admitting that to others would make me feel really vulnerable, which I'd like to avoid.

So anyway, I've had a lot of explaining and hiding around to do lately. I have to hide my herbal extracts bottles and my pills. I've had to explain why I suddenly have bad body odor (I've blamed it on my teas, but in reality it's the massage batter rubbed all over my chest), and I've had to explain why I'm suddenly interested in drinking tea at all (I've claimed that they're really healthy and that I'm trying to be healthier in general). I had to go out on my own and buy my pills. I had to order my herbal extracts online because I couldn't find them in stores, and I had to make sure I was home when the mail arrived during the next couple of days because I didn't want my package to arrive and end up being opened by my mother.

It's all really irritating. I hope that my efforts end up being worth it.

Day 24.

I don't have anything new to report. I've massaged once a day for the past two days and then the two days before that I massaged twice a day. I've been drinking one tea a day still. I was supposed to ramp it up to two per day, but I just tend to forget all about them. I've been really steady with my pills, though. I've taken them three times a day ever since I increased my doses.

I can't believe I've been on NBE for 24 days already. I don't have any growth yet, and I'm trying to be patient about it. I'm just starting to worry a little bit about how I'm going to keep this up once I move into my new apartment in a couple months. I'm going to be sharing a bedroom with a roommate, so I can't just massage freely. And our bathroom is going to be windowless, so I'd have to constantly explain the terrible smell of borage oil and herbs.

I've got to say that sometimes I feel like my NBE is not going to work, because it seems like it would be too good to be true. I have this picture of myself in my head with such a pretty hourglass shaped body, and if I was to look like that in real life, I would be completely content with my appearance. I'll continue with my routine and keep hoping that it works.

Day 19

I think I can officially say that my boobs have gone back to their normal size. I still have some moments where I think they feel fuller, but they definitely aren't as big as they were a few days ago.

Moving on, I have some good news to report on my routine! The stainless steel soap I ordered came in the mail today, so I took the opportunity to try it out. I took a shower and immediately prepared my massage mixture. As usual, the borage oil had the strongest smell out of all the ingredients. After I was done massaging I washed my hands with soap and water; then I turned off the hot water, so that it could be as cold as possible. I took my stainless steel soap and scrubbed my hands for a few minutes (taking extra care to get ALL the spots, especially between each finger and near my nails), and I really couldn't smell the borage oil after that. There were some points later in the day when I accidentally laid my hands near my chest where I'd rubbed my lotion and the smell would get on my hands slightly, but it would go away pretty quickly. So this soap was DEFINITELY a good purchase.

Today was the first time I massaged in like a week, by the way.

Anyway, I hope my routine starts to work soon.

Day 18.

I got my period today. Looks like I was right about my slightly bigger boobs being a result of PMS. I actually don't know if this the first day of my period because I was "spotting" both yesterday and the day before. Today is the first day blood is coming down freely, though. And I'm getting serious cramps. So yeah, today is either the first or third day of my cycle.

My boobs are still a little bigger, but they're shrinking slightly.

Anyway, yesterday I didn't do anything for my NBE routine. I didn't massage, take any pills, or drink any tea. The reason is that I was extremely sick, and the last thing on my mind was my routine. I was also taking medication and I didn't feel like taking an extra twelve pills. I was too dead to make the effort of preparing my massage lotion or massaging at all.

I think the day before yesterday I only took my pills twice and drank my tea. I might have massaged, but I'm not sure. I'm inclined to think I didn't, though.

That's all for now.

Day Sixteen

I ramped up my doses yesterday, so these are the new numbers:

Fenugreek: 1830 mg
Fennel: 1440 mg
Saw Palmetto: 1620 mg
Wild Yam: 1500 mg

I take three pills of each herb a day, which in total comes out to 12 pills. I take one of each herb in the morning, then late afternoon, then at night.

Unfortunately I forgot to take my tea yesterday and I only massaged once. I really don't know how I'm going to solve my problem with the borage oil smell. I haven't been wearing tops that "air out" my boobs (like tank tops) ever since I started this routine, because everyone would smell the scent of the BO and fenugreek if I so much as walked by them. So I've been attempting to basically trap the smell by wearing undershirts and t-shirts.

This works pretty well as far as concealing the stuff rubbed on my chest, but I still have a problem with my HANDS. I can easily wash off the smell of the herbs, but borage oil is a complete pain in the ass, and unfortunately, it's got the worst smelling stench out of anything I'm using in my massage. Washing my hands only temporarily gets rid of the borage oil smell. Like 10-15 minutes later, the smell is back with full force. I scrub hard and with a LOT of soap. I've tried running my hands under very hot water, and the smell STILL comes back.

It's becoming a pain and a little embarrassing, because the smell of borage oil is very strong and noticeable. Yesterday both my friend and my mother commented that I've been smelling a little "odd" lately. I've looked up some tutorials online on how to get rid of bad smells from your hands and some suggest running your hands under cold water (guess I was trying to do the wrong thing before). Some people also say to try rubbing stainless steal against your skin. I've actually decided to order a stainless steel "soap" from Amazon, but in the meantime I'm going to use a spoon to try to get rid of the horrible smell from my hands.

Anyway, my boobs are still a little bigger than they normally are. They're also a little sore. I'm still waiting to see if this is just PMS, but I hope it's not!